Have you ever felt like time just slipped out of your hands? Like if you could just relive some moments over and over, without clinging onto mere memories instead?
I’m living in that moment right now. Trying to conjure up moments while I gather up as many memories as I can. Of my childhood, family and friendships. Good and bad, happy and sad.
Somewhere between fleeing in pursuit of a long sought after freedom and finding it, I grew up. But how I wish I didn’t.
I long to be home. Back within the comforts of four walls, shielded by the love of my own. Where every day is no longer a new battle.
I’m learning. I’m growing. Discovering myself. I’m happy. Maybe this is just one of those days, when I wish I could have it all. I wish I could have it all – at home.
We sit across from each other. Hand in hand, lights all around. Chatter and merriment flooding the room. The music fills the room, riding on waves that the breeze brings with it. Conversations pour like torrents as glasses clink and a light headiness returns to our midst.
Your eyes saunter over to meet mine. Slowly, your smile finds its way onto my lips. But only for a fraction of a second. For we are interrupted, when the waiter arrives to ask your friend if she likes the wine. My gaze breaks away from yours. And I turn to smile at the man holding my hand.
I have stolen sugar cubes from restaurants infinite times, right from my childhood. Somehow, I still do.
Nothing else. Just sugar cubes.
Don’t ask me why. I just do.
Thrashing around in a sea of emotions.. let me drown myself in the depths of your soul.
What is that one word for the feeling which words cannot describe?
“Give me an example of something complex that can be broken easily..”said the teacher.
” The heart.” he replied.